Mama Don’t Go

February 26th, 2014

little bee

It breaks my heart every time I leave her at home. It breaks my heart even more when I wake her up in the morning to get her ready for nursery before I myself rush off to work and to hear her say ‘Mama don’t go to work’.

I took the day off yesterday as Little Bee asked me to. We didn’t do much apart from playing board games and had a picnic in the front room… but it was worth taking the day off from work.

And today she wants me to stay again… even though she knows I can’t.

I’ve been leaving her to go to work since she was seven months. She’s four years old now and it’s not getting any easier.

Happy Valentine’s Day

February 14th, 2014

Biscuit pop from hubby :)

valentine's biscuit pop

Biscuits, Last Eid Present

August 12th, 2013

It was a busy few days. Yesterday we went to the Central Mosque for the Eid Family Fun Day Out… after we went to the Dinosaur Zoo.

On the way back we stopped at the butcher as we were too late to get pizza from Sainsbury and  gave her a couple of biscuits :)

biscuits from butcher

I’m a Little Teapot

September 9th, 2012

We were in our local Cafe Nero (other coffee outlets are available in our neighbourhood) and one of the barista asked if we want any teapots. Apparently they are to use new teapots so they have to get rid of the good existing teapots. So hubby took one and I took one.



24hours Without My Phone

July 4th, 2012

On Monday, I lost my phone. I was on the way home with Little Bee and it started to rain. We were arguing as I tried to keep her and myself dry and she was pushing everything away. I got flustered and threw my bag under her buggy. That happened on Vant Road in Tooting Broadway.

When I got home, I immediately noticed that my phone was not in my bag. I went into panic mode. I urged Little Bee to get back into her buggy and we rushed back following the route we took home. All the way I knew it was a fruitless task but I just had to do it.

Panic stricken, I changed my Google password and called Hubby. Then I called my phone. It went straight to voicemail.

Little Bee was upset for me but I told her that although it’s not her fault, that I should be more careful, could she please listen to me next time and not argue. She agreed. But it’s too late now. My phone was lost.

Hubby knocked on a few doors down on Chertsey Street where Google Latitude last indicated where my phone was. No joy.

Yesterday, Hubby made leaflets and dropped them through the letterboxes on Chertsey Street. No joy.

The thing is, I don’t care about the losing the phone, what annoyed me most is losing all of Little Bee’s photos… from when she was small until now.

I had a sleepless night last night; more than 24 hours after I lost my phone. I was kicking myself hard for being so careless. But what good did that bring apart from now I’m feeling really tired from lack of sleep.

I’ve remotely installed all the applications I could find for finding an Android phone from Plan B to Android Lost to Android Lost Jumpstart to Missing Droid Locator to Where’s My Droid; even though I knew it was a useless tas, as I said earlier, in my panic mode I changed my Google password and I don’t think I can now talk to my phone even if someone switches it on.

There’s nothing I can do. I have to be all Zen about it and let it go. It is just a phone; it’s material. It great to have a smartphone but on a grand scheme of things, it is just a thing.

The weekend before last I was in hospital. I’m recovering now; it could have been worse. Now, that is a blessing.

Little Bee photos… yes, it’s sad to lose them but I have something better. I have living, breathing Little Bee that I could look at everyday.

People 100 years ago, or even 40 years ago didn’t have the convenience that we have now. I must count myself lucky.

And the last couple of nights, instead of constantly checking my phone, I actually had time to read my book.

Yes, there is life without the phone. It may be inconvenient but it is not the end of the world.

Three Years

April 21st, 2012

… on 17 April.


Anniversary Present from Hubby

Early Mother’s Day

March 16th, 2012

I have no idea why Mother’s Days is a different date in the UK than the rest of the world. It annoys me as I never remember to send my mom. But then, I don’t need a day to remember how special my mom is.

But it was nice to receive a card Little Bee made for me at Nursery on Wednesday.

Teapot card

It has a teabag in the card with a note saying that I should sit back, relax and have a nice cup of tea. Fat chance for that as there’s just to much to do.

And it’s also nice to get a bunch of lovely tulips from Hubby today :)

Mother's Day Tulips

Even though the florist got the delivery date wrong.

Well… to all mothers in the UK… Happy Mothering Sunday… for this Sunday, that is :)


December 31st, 2011

In a couple of hours it will be goodbye 2011 and hello 2012.

In April 2012, I will turn 40.

I’ve been blogging for a while now and looking back at older posts, which are no longer published to the public, I have changed from having a very personal blog to a blog that is still personal but more towards my personality than to my personal life. It has now become a blog that I want to share rather than vent my anger to the world.

For 2012, I’ve also changed the layout of my blog. When I first started, there was so much on my page. It was very busy. Today, as I was looking for a new layout, I wanted a very simple and clean theme. It was hard to find. But I’ve settled for this one for now… until I finder a cleaner, less cluttered theme.

Looking back… I have grown. Part of me is still bitter but I think it’s more being frustrated that I now know what I want but not being able to do about it immediately rather than thinking that the whole world is against me. I’m slowly, albeit very late, growing up.

May 2012 bring brighter prospects to everyone.


November 23rd, 2011

I know I haven’t been updating lately. It has been really busy… especially work wise but I have recently developed an addiction to pinterest! Below is the link to my board if you’re interested :)

And if you decide to join… HAPPY PINNING :)

Sponsor a Jump

July 21st, 2011

My dear husband (MDH) has decided that life with me is so unbearable that he is jumping out of a plane!

But seriously, MDH is doing a sponsored parachute jump for War Child. So, if you have a few quid to spare, please do sponsor him by clicking on the link below.